MS-HRC-SB-5-10

[2330.3] does it make, as long as ^{[place = supralinear] the moment} it's not my turn, my turn to understand,
my turn to live, my turn of the ^{[place = supralinear] life}screw, it calls that living,
the space of the way from here to the door, it's all there, in
what I hear, somewhere, if all has been said, all this ^{[place = supralinear] long} time, all
must have been said, but it's not my turn to know what, to know
what I am, where I am, and what I should do to stop being it,
to stop being there, that's coherent, so as to be another, no,
the same, I don't know, depart into life, travel the road, find

[2330.3] the door, find the axe, perhaps it's a cord, for the neck, for
the throat, for the cords, or finh ^{[place = overwritten] g}ers, I'll have eyes, I'll see
fingers, it will be the silence, perhaps it's a drop, find the
door, open the door, drop, into the silence, it won't be it ^{[place = supralinear] I}, I'll
stay here, or there, more likely there, it will be never be i ^{[place = overwritten] I},
[2330.4] it's all been done already, said and said again, the departure,
the body that rises, the way, in colour, the arrival, the door
that opens, closes again, it was never I, I've never stirred, I've

[2330.4] listened, I must have spoken, why deny it, why not admit it, ^{[place = supralinear] after all} I
deny nothing, I admit nothing, I say what I hear, I hear what I
say, I don't know, one or the other, or both, that makes three
possibilities, pick your fancy, all these stories about travellers ^{[place = inline] ,}
these stories about paralytics, all are mine, I must be extremely
old, or it's memory playing tricks, if only I knew if I've lived,
if I live, if I'll live, that would simplify everything, impossible
to know, that's where you're buggered, I haven't stirred, that's

[2330.4] all I know, no, I know v ^{[place = overwritten] s}omething else, it isn't I, I always forget
that, [2330.5] I resume, you must resume, never stirred from here, never
stopped telling myself stories, hardly hearing them, hearing
something else, listening for someh ^{[place = overwritten] t}hing else, wondering now and
then where I got them from, was in I in the land of the living,
were they in mine, and where, where do I keep them, in my head,
I don't feel a head on me, and what do I tell them with, with my
mouth, same ^{[place = inline] r}emark, and what do I hear them with, and so on, the

[2330.5] old rigmarole, it can't be I, or it's because I don't pay attent- ^{[place = supralinear] pay no heed,}
ion, it's such an old habit, I do it without minding ^{[place = supralinear] heeding} what I'm
doing, or as if I were elsewhere ^{[place = supralinear] somewhere else}, there I am afar again, there I