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[1033] they resume the thread of my misfortunes, judging me insufficiently
vitam ^{[place = overwritten] l}ized to bring them to a successful conclusion alone and un-
aided.

[1034] But instead of making the junction, I have often noticed
this, I mean instead of resuming ^{[place = supralinear] retrieving [place = supralinear] resuming} me at the point where I was
abandoned ^{[place = supralinear] left off}, they pick me up at a much later stage, perhaps thereby
hoping to induce in me the delusion that I had got through the
ine ^{[place = overwritten] t}t ^{[place = overwritten] e}rval ^{[place = supralinear] all [place = supralinear] all} on my own, that I had lived without the help of any kind,

[1034] for quite some time, without any recollection of by what means or
in what circumstances, or that I had ^{[place = supralinear] even} died, all on my own, and come
back to earth again, by way of the vagina, like a real live baby,
and reached a ripe age, and even senility, without the least
assistance from them and thanks solely to the indications they
had given me.

[1035] To saddle me with a lifetime is probably not enough
for them, I have to be given a taste of two or three generations.
[1036] But it is not certain.[1037] Perhaps all they have told me has reference
to a single existence, the confusion of identities being merely
apparent and due to my inaptitude to assume them ^{[place = supralinear] any}.[1038] When I ^{[place = supralinear] If I ever} succeed
in dying under my own steam, then they will be in a better position
to decider if ^{[place = supralinear] whether} I am worthy to adorn another age, or to try the
same one again, in the light of my experience.

[1039] I may therefore
legitimately suppose that the one-armed, one-legged wayfarer of
a moment ago and the wedge-headed trunk in which I am now at a ^{[place = supralinear] stuck}
standstill ^{[place = supralinear] marooned} are simply two phases of the same carnal envelope,
the soul being notoriously immune from deterioration ^{[place = supralinear] necrosis} and dis-
memberment.[1040] Having lost one leg, what indeed more natural ^{[place = supralinear] likely} than
that I should mislay the other?[1041] And so ^{[place = overwritten] i}milarly for the arms.

[1042] A
natural transition in sum.[1043] But what then of that other old age
they bestowed upon me, if I remember right, and that other
middle age, when neitg ^{[place = overwritten] h}er legs nor arms were lacking, but simply
the power to profit ^{[place = supralinear] benefit} by them?[1044] And of that kind of youth in which
they had to give me up for dead?

[1045] If I have a warm place, it ^{[place = supralinear] I am not the apple of their eye}
is not in their hearts. ^{[place = inline] ]}[1046] No doubt they have done what they could to
be agreeable to me, to get me out of here, on no matter what pre-
text, in no matter what disguise.[1047] All I reproach them with is their
insistence.For beyond them is that other who will not give me