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[2202] of the bony structure, that should suffice.

[2203] Unfortunately it's
a question of words, voices, one must not forget
that, one must try and not forget that
completely, a statement to be made, by
them, by me, some slight obscurity here,

[2203] it might sometimes be wondered if all
this bollocks about life and death is not
entirely alien to them,
just as much as to me.

[2204] The fact is they
no longer know where they are, in their affair, where I am, I never knew,
I'm where I always was, wherever that is,
and the affair, I don't know what is meant

[2204] by that, some process no doubt, where I am stuck,
or haven't yet come to, I'm not there at all,
in their affair, that's what worries them,
they want me to be there somewhere, anywhere,
if they'd only stop ratiocinating, on
^themselves, ^on me, the ^goal pursued, and

[2204] simply go on, with no illusion about having
begun one day or or ever being able
to conclude, but it's too difficult, too difficult,
for one devoid of purpose, not to

to look forward to his end,
and devoid of all reason to exist, back to
the time he did not.

[2205] Difficult too not to
forget, in your thirst for something to do,
so as to be done with it,
and have that much less to do, that there is
nothing to be done, nothing special to
be done, nothing doable to be done.

[2206.1] No point
either in your thirst, your hunger, no, no
need of hunger, thirst is enough, in your
thirst, no point in telling yourself stories,
to pass the time, stories don't pass the time,
nothing passes it, that doesn't matter, that's

[2206.1] the way it is, you tell yourself stories, then
any old thing, saying, No more stories from
now, whereas it's stories still, or rather
there were never any stories, it was always
any old thing, for as long as you can remember,
no, rather longer than that, you don't remember
anything, always any old thing, always

[2206.1] the same old thing, to pass the time, [2206.2] and
then, as time didn't pass, for no
reason, in your thirst, trying to stop, unable
to stop, seeking ^{[ADDITION]Addition on page 14vthe cause of} this need to talk,
this need to stop, this inability to stop,
finding the cause, losing it again, finding
it again, not finding it again, seeking no longer,
seeking again, finding again, losing again,