MS-HRC-SB-5-9-3

[2315.1] commit you to anything and the evil
moment passes, it drops dead,
suddenly you hear yourself talking
about god knows what as if you had
never done anything else all ^your life, and
you never have, never talked about any-
thing else, you come back from a far
place, back from the dead, that's
where you ought to be, that's where

[2315.1] you are, far from here, far from everything,
if I could go there, if I could
describe, I who am so successful
with xxx topography, [2315.2] that's right,
aspirations, when plans fail there
are always aspirations, it's a knack,
you must say it slowly, If only
I could, that gives you time, time

[2315.2] for a little ^{lump of longing} to rise up in the back
of your gullet, nothing remains but
to seem to want to appease it,
there's no knowing where that may lead
you, on tracks as beaten as the
day is long, often you pass yourself
by, someone passes himself by,

[2315.2] if only you knew, that's right,
aspirations, you turn and look
behind you, the other too, you
weep for him, he weeps for you, it's uproariously sad,
better that
than laughter.

[2316] What else,
opinions, comparisons, anything better
than laughter, all helps, can't help
helping, to get you over the pretty pass,
the things one has to
listen to, what pretty pass, it is not I who speak,

[2316] is it I who hear, let's not go into
that, go on as if I were the only one in
the world, whereas I'm the only one
absent from it, or with others, what
difference does that make, others present,
others absent, they are not obliged to

[2316] make themselves known, all that is
needed is to wander and let wander,
from word to word, be this slow
boundless whirlwind and
each one of its particles of dust, it's
impossible.

[2317] Someone speaks, someone
hears, no need to go any further,
it is not he, it's I, or another, or
others, what does it matter, the