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[1621|001] was not all. [1622] For there was involved here, I mean
when I exploited thus the
inequalities in the ground, a further element
of disequilibrium, I mean my crutches
one of which would have needed to be long,
and the other short, to prevent me from declining from
the vertical.

[1623] No? [1624] I don't know. [1625] And
then there were the ways I took, my ways, for
the most part little tracks in the forest, that
was natural, where the differences of level,
if they abounded, were ^so confused and erratic that they could not be of help
to me.

[1626]
[1627] [1628] [1626] But
was there so great a difference after all, as
far as the pain was concerned, between my
being able to rest my leg and my having to
work it?

[1627] I think not. [1628] For the leg that was at
rest, its sufferings were constant & monotonous.
[1629] Whereas the leg that drove itself to ^that in-
crement of suffering which was the work done
knew that abatement of suffering which was
the work suspended, if only for an instant.

[1630] But
I am human I trust, and my progress felt
the effects of this state of affairs, and from the
slow and painful ^progress that it always had
been, whatever I may have let escape
to the contrary, was transformed, with respect

[1630] let it be said, into a veritable calvary, with no
limit to its stations and no hope of crucifixion,
without false blushes be it said, and
no Simon, and compelled me to frequent
stations.

[1631] Yes, my progress compelled me
to stop more and more frequently, the only
way I could progress was to stop. [1632] And
though it is ^no part of my tottering in-
tentions to deal at
becoming length with these brief instants
of the immemorial atonement,
yet I must for my sins touch lightly upon