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[4125] Question. Should I tell my son what had happened?
[4126] Answer. No, for then it would be his duty to denounce me.
[4127] Question. Would he denounce me?
[4128] Answer.
[4129] Question. How did I feel?
[4130] Answer. Much as usual.

[4131] Question. And yet I had changed and was still changing?
[4132] Answer. Yes.
[4133] Question. And in spite of this I felt much as usual?
[4134] Answer. Yes.
[4135] Question. How was this to be explained?
[4136] Answer.

[4137] These questions and others too were separated by more or less
prolonged intervals of time not only from one another, but also from the
answers appertaining to them. [4138] And the answers did not always ^follow in the
order of the questions. [4139] But while looking for the answer, or the answers,
to a given question, I found the answer, or the answers, to a question I
had already asked myself in vain, in the sense that I had not been able
to answer it, or I found another question, or other ^[|] questions, demanding
in their turn an immediate answer.

[4140] Translating myself now in imagination to the present moment, I declare
the foregoing to have been written with a firm and even satisfied hand, and
a mind calmer than it has been for a long tⁱme. [4141] For I shall be far away,
before these lines are read, in a place where no one will dream of coming
to look for me. [4142] And then Youdi will take care of me, he will not let me
be punished for a fault committed in the execution of my duty. [4143] And they
can do ⁿothing to my son, rather they will commiserate with him on having
had such a father, and offers of help and expressions of esteem will pour