[p. 01r]

Analysis

Birth ... hole in bog - name forgotten - parents unknown - premature - no love - waifs' home

Field ... aetat. 65 - picking cowslips to make a ball - April morning - idly - stop & stare into space - eye fixed on distant cowslip & going towards it when all went out - fantasy of returning there - lie down face in grass - nothing but the larks

insentience ... first total - doesn't know what position she's in - only eyelids moving since ray disappears - this questioned with memory of field - then lips moving and whole speaking apparatus - also eyes 100° - (mention earlier!!) ^cut - fear lest this extend to whole frame unfounded so far -

So far .. with ref. to no pain from beam - now extrusion of puking - amplify

buzzing .. so-called - not in ears but heart of skull - preventing her from hearing - from thinking - dull roar like falls - now regularly forgotten in enumeration of woes

brain .. working from beginning - first thought - next though always much later - gets gradually out of hand - raving - flickering around - snatching at straws - bringing up past - preventing her from hearing - the odd thought like the odd word - no idea what she's thinking - flashes in the dark - can't stop it ^{(amplify)[✓]}

memories .. shopping centre - fined - odds & ends of walking - one time she cried - add to

speculations .. perhaps something she had to say - ^{(how it had been e.g.)} perhaps something she had to think - then forgiven - back in field - both denied by "interrupter"

walking .. walking all her days - stop & stare into space - amplify ^[✓]

punishment
suffering ... first thought punishment - merciful God - waifs - denied since not suffering - questionable if thought to be suffering - failure to simulate suffering (groan) amplify - tho not explicitly stated suffering begins with voice & thought & buzzing

interruptions .. to propose 1st person "what? - who? - what? - no - no!" (passim) - to remind of buzzing (passim) - to correct age (bis) - to deny she had to say ^tell anything ^{(how reconcile with )} to deny she had to think anything (bis) to object to bog (1) ^[✓]

beam ... from beginning - moon image - moon denied - just part of punishment - but painless - so far - same spot at first ^{(not explicitly stated made clear)} then flickering (analogy with thought) - ferreting -. pain beginning ^{(not made clear) [✓]}

speechless ... speechless infant - all her days - vowel sounds rare occasions - ex. supermart ^{- another ex. - how she survived [✓]}

voice ... always stream - not the quarter - first denied as hers - in spite of sounds - then accepted when lips move - no idea what she's saying - can't stop it - ^{amplify [✓]}