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[0211] ^{[ADDITION]Addition on page 4v} recollect particularly, all white and starch, ^incomparable
bosom, with a big black hooded pram^{, most funereal thing.}[0212] Whenever I looked in her
direction she had her eyes on me.[0213] But ^{one day} when I was ^{ingenuous enough}
to speak to her ^{try and pat her on the bottom} [Stet] she threatened to call a policeman.[0217] The
face she had^![0218] Eyes[0219] like - moonstone^![0220] (Pause.)

[0223] I was there
when - (Krapp switches off, broods, switches on again) - the
blind went down, one of those dirty brown roller affairs,
throwing a ball for ^{fox terrier} as chance would have it.[0224] I happened
to look up and there it was.[0225] All over, at last.[0226] I sat on for
a few moments with the ball in my hand and the dog
y^elping and pawing at me.[0227] (Pause.)[0228] Moments.[0228|001] (Pause.)[0229] Her
moments. My moments.[0230] (Pause.)[0231] The dog's moments.[0232] (Pause.)

[0233] In
the end I held it out to him and he took it in his mouth,
gently.[0234] A ^small old^, black ^{, [⁁] solid rubber ball. [⁁]}
[0235] (Pause.)[0236]
[0236]

[0241] Pause.
[0244] Spiritually a year of profound gloom and indigence until
that memorable night in March, at the end of the pier, in
the howling wind, never to be forgotten, when suddenly I
saw the whole thing.[0245] The ^vision, at last.

[0246] This I
imagine is what I have chiefly to set down this evening,
against the day when my work will be done and perhaps no
place left in my memory, no thankfulness, for the
mira^cle
that...(hesitates)...for the fire that set it alight.

[0247] What
I ^suddenly saw then ^{[⁁] was this, [⁁]} that the ^belief I had been going on all
my life, namely -[0248] (Krapp switches off impatiently, winds
tape for^ward, switches on again)[0249] - granite rocks the foam
flying up in the light of the beacon and the anemometer ^{wind gauge} spin-
ning like a propellor, clear to me at last that the dark I
[⁁] ^{have always struggled to keep under} is in reality my most -

[0250] (Krapp
curses, switches off, winds tape forward, switches on again)[0251] -
- unshatterable association ^until my ^{...(hesitates)...dissolution} of storm and night with the light of the understanding
and -[0252] (Krapp curses louder, switches off, winds tape violently
forward, switches on again)[0253] - my face in her breasts and my
hand on her.[0254] We lay there without moving.[0255] But underneath us
all moved, and moved us, ^gently up and down, and from side to side.

[0256] Pause.
[0257] Past midnight.[0258] Never knew such silence.[0259] ^{The earth might be
uninhabited.}
[0260] Pause.
[0261] Here I end -
[0262] Krapp switches off, winds tape back, switches on again.

[0263] - upper lake, with the punt, bathed off the bank, then
pushed out into the stream and drifted.[0264] She lay stretched out
on the floorboards with her hands under her head and her eyes
closed.[0265] Sun blazing down, bit of a breeze, water nice and
lⁱvely.[0266] I noticed a scratch on her thigh and asked her how
she ^{came by} it.[0267] Picking gooseberries, she said.I said again I

[0268] I said again I