MS-TCD-4664

... and [xxx] ^while it was not clear at first that she
was now in position [meaning] of [course] no further
positions and what is more ^{to the point} no further change
of [position] worth mentioning such as for example
turning over on the side (xxx) ^{([on face])} now the
one side now the [xxx] other ^{in order} to rest and relieve

the back and even as some are seen to do when
the[x] sides are weary ^over on the face breasts permitting,
while [this] was not yet clear meaning [to] her [en-
tourage] not yet even to them though to her quite
clear [that] she was now in position

(Normal voice)
... leave her like that without in the state she
was in - and here he paused ^halted with his hand
on the [door-knob] and turned back to look
at her - leave her like that knowing the
state she was in [to] look at her?

No, just
[turned] back. Weary ^Sick of the [sight] - [leave]
(curtain) - leave her like that knowing
the state she was in - here he turned and
let her see his face - without hearing her out
or a word of [explanation] or a word ... as to
when [...] perhaps soon ... again, did he
not realize, (violently) did he not
realize?

(Pause. [Assuredly].) He did.
He thought he did. And that to hear her out wd.
be ^only to hear ^again what he had heard a thousand
times already. And that to [explain] would
be ^only to say ^again what he [sai] had said a thousand
times already. And that he had to go away -
meaning a journey - and did not know
when he would be back.

But that when ^{he was}
he got back back ... And that everyone had their
[troubles]. All to the [carpet], beyond ^through her.
([Long] pause) She got her [bottom] off her [heels],
[then off] up off her knees [xx] her feet and [to] over to
the window, pulling the [xxx] to ^drawing [closing] the
[curtains] behind her to shut off the light of
the [room] and [see] into the street.

He [turned
over] and [made] ^off, his shadow lengthening
before him till he was [half way] to the street
lamp, [still] lengthening behind him.
(Long pause.) Conclusion. [(Begin tears)] Conclusion.

(Long pause) Oh time giver of light - (Pause.)
Oh time when we come to this and ^.... [this] dark where she was
laid so long ago this prayer giver of light and taker
of it away take it away. (Pause. Tears, at length.
End of tears. Pause.) Conclusion. The body. [On its]