MS-UoR-1227-7-12-1-analysis

Birth ... hole in bog - name forgotten - parents
unknown - premature - no love - waifs' home

Field ... aetat. 65 - picking cowslips to make a ball -
April morning - idly - stop & stare into space
- eye fixed on distant cowslip & going towards it
when all went out - fantasy of returning there -
lie down face in grass - nothing but the larks

insentience ... first total - doesn't know what position
she's in - only eyelids moving since ray
disappears - this questioned with memory
of field - then lips moving and whole
speaking apparatus - also eyes 100° - (mention
earlier!!) ^{[place = margin left] cut} - fear lest this extend to whole
frame unfounded so far -

So far .. with ref. to no pain from beam - now
extrusion of puking - amplify

buzzing .. so-called - not in ears but heart of skull -
preventing her from hearing - from thinking -
dull roar like falls - now regularly forgotten
in enumeration of woes

brain .. working from beginning - first thought -
next though always much later - gets
gradually out of hand - raving - flickering
around - snatching at straws - bringing
up past - preventing her from hearing -
the odd thought like the odd word - no
idea what she's thinking - flashes in the dark -
can't stop it ^{[place = inline] (amplify) [place = margin left] [✓]}

memories .. shopping centre - fined - odds & ends of
walking - one time she cried - add to

speculations .. perhaps something she had to say - ^{[place = margin right] (how it had been e.g.)}
perhaps something she had to think -
then forgiven - back in field - both
denied by "interrupter"

walking .. walking all her days - stop & stare into
space - amplify ^{[place = margin left] [✓]}

punishment
suffering ... first thought punishment - merciful God -
waifs - denied since not suffering -
questionable if thought to be suffering -
failure to simulate suffering (groan)
amplify - tho not explicitly stated
suffering begins with voice & thought
& buzzing

interruptions .. to propose 1st person "what? - who? - what? -
no - no!" (passim) - to remind of
buzzing (passim) - to correct age (bis) -
to deny she had to say ^{[place = supralinear] tell} anything ^{[place = infralinear] (how reconcile with )}
to deny she had to think anything (bis)
to object to bog (1) ^{[place = margin left] [✓]}

beam ... from beginning - moon image - moon
denied - just part of punishment -
but painless - so far - same spot at
first ^{[place = inline] (not explicitly stated [place = supralinear] made clear)} then flickering
(analogy with thought) - ferreting -.
pain beginning ^{[place = inline] (not made clear) [place = margin left] [✓]}

speechless ... speechless infant - all her days - vowel sounds rare
occasions - ex. supermart ^{[place = inline] - another ex. [place = margin left] - how she survived [place = margin left] [✓]}

voice ... always stream - not the quarter - first denied
as hers - in spite of sounds - then accepted when
lips move - no idea what she's saying - can't
stop it - ^{[place = inline] amplify [place = margin left] [✓]}