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[0479] a moment more worthy ^{[place = supralinear] worthier} than grey to enfold me.[0480] What nonsense ^{[place = supralinear] rubbish}
all this business ^{[place = supralinear] stuff} about light and dark.[0481] And how I have
wallowed in it.[0482] But f ^{[place = overwritten] d}o I roll, like ^{[place = supralinear] in the manner of} a true ball? Or am I in
equilibrium somewhere, on one of my innumerable ^{[place = supralinear] numberless} poles?[0483] I
feel strongly tempted to know ^{[place = supralinear] enquire [place = supralinear] discover}.[0484] What a chunk ^{[place = supralinear] slice} of discourse ^{[place = supralinear] reams} I
could squeeze ^{[place = supralinear] elicit} from this apparently so legitimate preoccupation.

[0480] What nonsense ^{[place = supralinear] rubbish}
all this business ^{[place = supralinear] stuff} about light and dark.[0481] And how I have
wallowed in it.[0482] But f ^{[place = overwritten] d}o I roll, like ^{[place = supralinear] in the manner of} a true ball? Or am I in
equilibrium somewhere, on one of my innumerable ^{[place = supralinear] numberless} poles?[0483] I
feel strongly tempted to know ^{[place = supralinear] enquire [place = supralinear] discover}.[0484] What a chunk ^{[place = supralinear] slice} of discourse ^{[place = supralinear] reams} I
could squeeze ^{[place = supralinear] elicit} from this apparently so legitimate preoccupation.

[0481] And how I have
wallowed in it.[0480] What nonsense ^{[place = supralinear] rubbish}
all this business ^{[place = supralinear] stuff} about light and dark.[0482] But f ^{[place = overwritten] d}o I roll, like ^{[place = supralinear] in the manner of} a true ball? Or am I in
equilibrium somewhere, on one of my innumerable ^{[place = supralinear] numberless} poles?[0483] I
feel strongly tempted to know ^{[place = supralinear] enquire [place = supralinear] discover}.[0484] What a chunk ^{[place = supralinear] slice} of discourse ^{[place = supralinear] reams} I
could squeeze ^{[place = supralinear] elicit} from this apparently so legitimate preoccupation.

[0485] But which would not be credited to me.[0486] No, between me and
the right to silence, the living rest ^{[place = supralinear] to rest before I end}, stretches the same old
lesson, the lesson ^{[place = supralinear] one} I knew by heart and would not say, I don't
know why, ^{[place = supralinear] perhaps} for fear of the silence perhaps, or thinking any old
thing would do, and so lies for preference, in order to re-
maij ^{[place = overwritten] n} hidden. ^{[place = inline] ,}[0487] No ^{[place = supralinear] no} importance.[0488] But now I shall say my lesson, if
I can remember it.

[0489] Under the skies, on the roads, in the towns,
in the woods, in the mountains ^{[place = supralinear] hills}, in the plains, by the seas ^{[place = supralinear] shores},
on the waves ^{[place = supralinear] sea}, behind my mannikins, I was not always sad, I
wasted ^{[place = supralinear] ing} my time, abjured ^{[place = supralinear] ing} my rights, suffered ^{[place = supralinear] ing} for nothing, for-
got ^{[place = supralinear] getting} my lesson. [Stet] [0490] Then a little hee ^{[place = overwritten] l}l after my own heart, ^{[place = supralinear] not too cruel,} with
a few nice damned to hang ^{[place = supralinear] foist} my groans on, something sighing off
and on and the far off ^{[place = supralinear] distant} gleams of pity's flames fires biding
their hour to promote us to ashes.

[0491] I speak, speak, because I
must, but I do not listen, I seek after my lesson, my life I
used to know and would not confess, whence possibly an
occasional slight lack of limpidity.[0492] And perhal ^{[place = overwritten] p}s now once
again I shall do no more than seek after my lesson, and fail ^{[place = supralinear] never}
to say it, to the self-accompaniment of a language ^{[place = supralinear] tongue} that is
not mine.

[0493] But instead of saying what I should not say have
said, and what I shall say no more, ^{[place = supralinear] if I can,} and what I shall say
perhaps, if I can, should In I not rather say some other
thing, even though it be ^{[place = supralinear] is} not yet the right thing?[0494] I shall ^{[place = supralinear] I'll} [Stet]
try, I shall ^{[place = supralinear] I'll} try in another present, even though it be not
yet mine, without pauses, without tears, without eyes, with-
out reasons.

[0495] Let us assume ^{[place = supralinear] it be assumed} [Stet] then that I am at rest, ^{[place = supralinear] though it's} unimportant
though this is, at rest or rolling never still, through the
air or in contact with other surfaces, or that I sometimes
roll ^{[place = supralinear] move}, sometimes rest, since I fel ^{[place = overwritten] e}l nothing, neither quietude