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[1689] holding in my hand a stone, a horse chestnut of a fir-apple
or a cone, and I would be still holding it when I woke, my
fingers closed over it, in spite of sleep which makes a rag of the
body, so that it may rest. [1690] And those of which I ea ^{[place = overwritten] we}aried, or which
were ousted by new loves, I threw awau ^{[place = overwritten] y}, that is to say I cast
round for a place to lay them where they would be at peace for-
ever, and no on ^{[place = margin left] e} ever find them short of an extraordinary hazard,
and such places are few and far between, and I laid them there.

[1691] Or I buried them, or threw them into the sea, with all my strength
as far as possible from the land, those I knew for certain would
not float, even briefly. [1692] But many a wooden friend too I have sent
to the bottom, weighted with a stone. [1693] Until I realized that was
wrong of me. [1694] For when the string is rotted they will rise to
the surface, if they have not already done so, and return to the
land, sooner or later. [1695] In this was ^{[place = margin left] y} I disposed of things I loved
but could no longer keep, because of new loves.

[1696] And ofe ^{[place = overwritten] t}en I
missed them. [1697] But I had hidden them so well that even I could
never find them again. [1698] That's the style, as if I still had time
to kill. [1699] And so I have, deep down I know it well. [1700] Then why play
at being in a hurry? [1701] I don't know.

[1702] Perhaps I am in a hurry after
all, [1703] it was the impression I had a short time ago. [1704] But my im-
pressions. [1705] And what after all if I were not so anxious as I make
out to recall to mind all that is left to me of all I ever had? ^{[place = margin left] had, a good dozen objects at least to put it mildly?}
[1706] No no, I must? ^{[place = margin left] .} [1707] Then it's something else. [1708] Where were we? [1709] My bowl.
[1710] So I never got rid of it. [1711] I used it as a receptacle, I kept
things in it, I wonder what I could have kept in it, so small