
[0328] to do mfor me.
[0329] And I forgive her for having jostled me a little
in the first months and spoiled the only endurable, just endurable,
period of my enormous history.
[0330] And I also give her credit for not
having done it again, thanks to me, or for having stopped in time,
when she did.
[0331] [⁁]And if ever I'm reduced to looking for a meaning to my life, you never can tell,,it's in that old mess I'll stick my nose to begin
with, the mess of that poor old uniparous whore and myself the
last of my foul brood, neither man nor beast.
[0332] I should add, before I
getting down to the facts, you'd swear they were facts, of that
distant summer afternoon, that with this deaf blind impotent mad
old woman, who called me Dan and whom I called Mag, and with her
alone, I — no, I can't say it.
[0333] That is to say I could say it
but I won't say it, yes, I could say it easily, because it wouldn't
be true.
[0334] What did I see of her?
[0335] A head always, the hands sometimes,
the arms rarely.
[0336] A head always.
[0337] Veiled with hair, wrinkles, filth,
slobber.
[0338] A head that darkened the air. [0339] Not that seeing matters,
but it's something to go on with.
[0340] It's I who took the key from
under the pillow, who took the money out of the drawer, who put
the key back under the pillow.
[0341] But I didn't come for money.
[0342] I think there was a woman who came each week.
[0343] Once I touched with
my lips, vaguely, hastily, that little grey wiszened pear.
[0344] Pah.
[0345] Did that please her?
[0346] I don't know.
[0347] Her babble stopped for a
second, then began again. [0349] Perhaps she said to herself, Pah.
[0350] I
smelt a terrible smell.
[0351] It must have come from the guts.
[0352] Odour
of antiquity.
[0353] Oh I'm not criticising her, I don't diffuse the
perfumes of Araby myself.
[0354] Shall I describe the room?
[0355] No.
[0356] I
shall have occasion to do so later perhaps.
[0357] When I seek refuge
there, bet, all shame drunk, my prick in my rectujm, who knows.
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