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[1144] my appetite. [1145] My appetite! [1146] What a subject. For conversation. [1148] I had
hardly any. I ate like a thrush. But the little I did eat I devoured
with a voracity usually attributed to heavy eaters, and wrongly, for
heq ^{[place = overwritten] a}vy eaters as a rule eat ponderously and with method, that follows
from the very notion of heavy eater ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]eating}. [1149] Whereas I flung myself at the
Eintopf ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]mess}, swallowed ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]gulped down} the half or the quarter of it in two mouthfuls worthy
of a fish of prey, I mean without chewing (with what would I have chewed?) ^{[place = inline] ,}
then pushed it from me with loathing.

[1150] One would have thought I ate to
live! [1151] Similarly I would engulf five or six Imperial pints of porter ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]mugs of beer} with
one gulp ^{[place = supralinear] swig}, then drink nothing for a week. [1152] What do you expect, one is what
one is, partly at least. [1153] Nothing or little to be done. [1154] Now as to the
substances she insinuated thus into my various systems, I could not say
whether they were stimulants or whether they were not rather depressants.

[1155] The truth is, kinaesthetically ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]coenaesthetically} speaking of course, I felt more or less
the same as usual, viz — betrayal! — ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]that is to say, if I may give myself away,} so terror-stricken that in a
sense I lost the power ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]I was virtually bereft} of feeling, not to say ^{[place = supralinear] of} consciousness, and drowned
in a deep and merciful torpor shot with brief abominable gleams, I give
you my word. [1156] Against such harmony of what avail the miserable molys of
Lousse, administered in infinitesimal doses probably, to draw the pleasure
out.

[1157] Not that they remained entirely without effc ^{[place = overwritten] e [place = supralinear] c}t, no, that woud ^{[place = overwritten] l}d be
an exaggeration. [1158] For from time to time I caught myself making a little
lep ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]bound} in the air, two or three feet off the ground at least, at least, I
who never leaped ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]bounded}. [1159] It looked like levitation. [1160] And it happened too, what
was less surprising ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]ly}, when I was walking, or even propped up against
something, that I suddenly collapsed, like a puppet when its strings are
dropped, and lay long where I fell, literally boneless.

[1161] Yes, that seemed
to me ^{[place = supralinear] struck me as less} strange ^{[place = inline] ,} for I was used to collapsing thus, but with this difference,
that I felt it coming, and prepared myself accordingly, as an epileptic
will ^{[place = supralinear] [⁁]does} when he feels the fit coming on. [1162] I mean that knowing I was going