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[3539] appointed by her, it was only natural I should withdraw, out of delicacy.
[3540] I can see him still, looking after me. [3541] I fancy he would have liked me for
a friend. [3542] I don't know what became of him. [3543] I lost interest in my patien^ts,
once I had finished with them. [3544] I may even truthfully say I never saw one
of them again^, subsequently, not a single one. [3545] No conclusions need be
drawn from this.

[3546] Oh the stories I could tell you, if I were easy. [3547] What
a rabble in my head, what a gallery of moribunds. [3548] Murphy, Watt, Yerk,
Mercier and all the others. [3549] I would never have believed that — yes,
I believe it willingly. [3550] Stories, stories. [3551] I have not been able to tell
them. [3552] I shall not be able to tell this one.

[3553] I could not determine therefore how I was to deal with Molloy, once
I had fouⁿd him. [3554] The directions which Gaber must certainly have given me
with reference to this had gone clean out of my head. [3555] That is what came of
wasting the whole of that Sunday on stupidities. [3556] There was no good my
saying, Let me see now, what is the usual thing?

[3557] There were no usual
things, in my instructions. [3558] Admittedly there was one particular operation
that recurre^d from time to time, but not often enough to be, with any
degree of probability, the one I was looking for. [3559] But even if it had
always figured in my instructions, except on one single occasion, then that
single occasion would have been enough to tie my hands, I was so scrupulous.

[3560] I told myself I had better give it no more thought, that the first
thing to do was to find Molloy, that then I woul^d devise something, that
there was no hurry, that the thing would come back to me when I le^[⁁]ast
expected it and that if, having found Molloy, I still did not know what to
do with him, I could always manage to get in touch with Gaber without
Youdi's knowing.

[3561] I had his address just as he had mine. [3562] I would send him
a telegram, How deal with M? [3563] To give me an explicit reply, though in terms
if necessary veiled, was not beyond his powers. [3564] But was there a telegraph