Samuel Beckett
Digital Manuscript Project
Not I / Pas moi

MS-HRC-SB-5-3

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Segment 1

[0027] on ... God is love ... she'll be purged ... [0028] back in
the field ... morning sun ... April ... sink face
down in the grass ... nothing but the larks ... so
on ... grabbing at the straw ... straining to hear
... the odd word ... make some sense of it ...
whole body like gone ... just the mouth ... like

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Segment 2

[0028] maddened ... and can't stop ... no stopping it ...
something she - ... something she had to [place = margin left] - ... what?
... who? ... what? ... no [place = margin left] [] ... no! ... SHE! [place = margin right] she! ...
(pause and movement 3 ) ... something she had to
- ... what? ... the buzzing? ... yes ... all the
time the buzzing ... dull roar ... in the skull ...

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Segment 3

[0028] and the beam ... ferreting around ... painless ...
so far ... ha! ... so far ...
[0029] tha [place = margin left] en thinking ...
another thought ... [place = margin left] [] oh long after ... sudden flash
... perhaps something she had to ... had to ... tell [place = margin right] ...
could that be it? ... something she had to [place = margin left] ... tell ...
tiny little thing ... before its time ... [place = margin left] godforsaken hole ... no love ...

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Segment 4

[0029] spared that ... speechless all her days ... practic-
ally speechless ... how she survived! ... that time
in court ... what had she to say for herself ...
guilty or not guilty ... stand up, [place = margin left] [] woman ... speak
up, [place = margin left] [] woman ... stood there staring into space ...
mouth half open as usual ... waiting to be led away

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Segment 5

[0029] ... glad of the hand on her arm ... now this ...
something she had to tell ... could that be it? ...
something that would tell ... how it was ... how
she - ... what? ... had been? ... yes ... some-
thing that would tell how it had been ... how she [place = margin right] had
lived ... lived on and on ... guilty or not [place = margin left] ... on and on ... to be

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Segment 6

[0029] sixty ... something she - ... what? ... seventy?
... good God! ... on and on to be seventy ... some-
thing she didn't know herself ... wouldn't know if
she heard ... then forgiven ... God is love ...
tender mercies ... new every morning ...
[0030] back in
the field ... April morning ... face in the grass ...

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Segment 7

[0030] nothing but the larks ... pick it up there ... get on
with it from there ... another few - ... what? ...
not that? ... nothing to do with that? ... nothing
she could tell? ... all right ... nothing she could
tell ... try something else ... think of something
else ... oh long after! [place = margin left] [] ... sudden flash ... not that

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Segment 8

[0030] either ... all right ... something else again ... so
on ... hit on it in the end ... think everything keep
on long enough ...
[0031]then [place = margin left] forgiven ... back in the - ... what?
... not that either? ... nothing to do with that? [place = margin left] either? ... nothing
she could think? ... all right ... nothing she could
tell ... nothing she could think ... nothing she - ...
what? ... who? ... what? ... no [place = margin left] [] ... no! ... SHE! [place = margin right] she!
... (pause and movement 4 ) ... tiny little thing ...

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she!
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godforsaken hole ...
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had
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... on and on
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forgiven ...
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either? ...
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she!
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