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[2232] all we need now and to complete the elements,
[xxx] no, I'm forgetting fire, unusual hell
when you come to think of it, perhaps it's
paradise, perhaps it's the earth, perhaps it's
the [shore] of an shores of an underground lake,
you scarcely breathe, under the earth, you
scarcely breathe, just enough but you breathe,
it's not certain, you see nothing, hear

[2232] nothing, you hear the long kiss of dead water
and mud, up above at less than a score of
fathoms men come and go, you dream [on]
them, in your long dream there's a place for
the waking, you wonder [fr] how you know all
you know, you even see grass, the grass of
dawn, a little grey with dew, not as [xxx]
so ruined as all that, my eyes, [they are] they
are not mine, mine are done, they don't even
weep any more, they open and close by the
force of habit, fifteen minutes [x] exposure,
fifteen minutes shutter, like the owl
in the cooped in the ^a grotto in Battersea Park,
Battersea Park, that strikes a chord, ah
? (funérailles) ^{[ADDITION]Addition on page 24vGod's death} , will I never stop wanting
a life for myself?

[2232] are

[2233] No, no, no head either,
anything you like, but not a head, in his head
he doesn't go anywhere either, I've tried,
[2234] lashed to the stake, his eyes blindfolded,
gagged to the gullet, you take the air,
under the elms in se, quoting Shelley to
yourself, [insensitive] not feeling the arrows.

[2235] Yes, a head, but solid, solid bone, and
you buried in it, like a fossil in the rock.
[2236] But I Perhaps there go I after all.[2237] I can't
go on in any case.[2238] But I must go on.[2239] I'll
go on.[2240] Air, air, I'll seek air, air in time,
the air of time, and in space, in my head,
that's how I'll be able to go on.

[2241] [That's] All very
well, but the voice is failing, it's the first time,
no, that's as old as the hills, ^{[ADDITION]Addition on page 24vI've been through that,} it has even stopped,
many a time, that's how it will end again,
I'll go silent, for want of air, then the air
will come back and I'll start again.[2242] My voice.

[2243] The voice.[2244] Yes, I don't hear it so well.[2248] I'm
going silent.[2249] [Not] being able to hear ^{No longer hearing} this voice,
that's what I call going silent.[2250] That's to say
I'll hear it still, if I listen hard.[2251] I'll listen
hard.[2252] Listening hard, that's what I call
going silent.[2253] I'll hear it still, broken, faint,
unintelligible, if I listen hard.

[2254] Hearing
it still, without hearing what it says, that's
what I call going silent.[2255] Then it will blaze
up, like a kindling fire, a dying fire, Mahood
explained that to me, and I'll emerge,
from silence.[2256] Hearing too little to be able to
speak, that's my silence.[2257] That's That is