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[0100] seems now at hand. [0101] I shall not ;^lose my head on that account.
[0102] So first of all my stories and then, last of all, if all goes
well, my inventory. [0103] And I shall begin, that they may plague me
no more, with the man and woman. [0104] That will be the first story,
there is not matter there for two. [0105] There will therefore be only
three stories after all, that one, then the one about the animal,
then the one about the thing, a stone probably. [0106] That is all very
clear. [0107] Then I shall deal with my possessions.

[0108] If after all that
I am, I am still alive I shall take the necessary steps to ensure
my not having made a mistake. [0109] So much for that. [0110] I used not to
know where I was going, but I knew I would arrive, I knew there
would be an end to the long blind road. [0111] What half-truths, my
God. [0112] No matter. [0113] It is playtime now. [0114] I find it hard to get used
to that idea. [0115] The old fog calls. [0116] Now the case is reversed, [0117] the
way well charg^ted and little hope of coming to its end.

[0118] But I
have high hopes. [0119] What am I doing now, I wonder, losing time or
gaining it? [0120] I have also decided to remind myself briefly of my
present state before embarking on my stories. [0121] I think this is
a mistake. [0122] It is a weakness. [0123] But I shall indulge in it. [0124] I shall
play with all the more ardour afterwards. [0125] And it will be a
pendant to the inc^ventory. [0126] Aesthetics are therefore on my side,
at least a certain kind of aesthetics.

[0127] For I shall have to become
earnest again to be able to speak of my possessions. [0128] There it is
then divided into five, the time that remains. [0129] Into five what?
[0130] I don't know. [0131] Everything divided^[₰]@s into itself, I suppose. [0132] If I
start trying to think again I shall make a mess of my decease.
[0133] I must say there is something very attractive about such a
prospect. [0134] But I am on my guard. [0135] For the past few days I have been