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[0036] (reading from ledger, his nose down on it). [0037] Box three Box ... thr^rree ... spool ... five. ([0038] He turns his [head] front without [rai] and stares front. [0039] With relish.) [0040] Spool! [0041] (Pause.) [0042] Spooool! [0045] (He turns back to table, starts peering & poking at the boxes.) [0046] Box ... three [thrree] thrree ... thrree ... four... two ... (with surprise) ... nine! ... seven... good God! ... seven ... ah! .... the little rascal! [0047] (He separates box three from the others.) [0048] Box three thrree. [0049] (He opens it, peers at the spools it contains.) [0050] Spool ... (He peers at ledger, finds the entry.) Five. (He peers at spools) Five ... five ... [0051] (He takes out a spool, [xx] straightens up, holds up the spool between finger & thumb.) [0052] Box thrree, s^Spoool five.

[0036] (reading from ledger, his nose down on it) [0037] Box ... three ... spool ... five ([0038] He turns his head from ledger ^{[away from table] [xxx xxx] front}, without raising it. [0039] Appreciatively.) [0040] Spoool! [0041] (again, relishing the word.) [0042] Spooool! [0045] (He turns back to table, starts peering at the boxes) and fumbling at the boxes.) [0046] Box ... three. (He turns his head front without raising it. As before^,). The rolling the r). Three! (Pause) Thrreee! (He turns back to boxes) Box ..... box ...... (peering at numbers) ......... four ......... two ..... (with surprise) ... nine! .... seven ... ah! the little rascal! [0047] (He separates the box from the others) [0048] Box three thrreee. [0049] (He opens it, peers at the spools it contains) [0050] Spool ... (He turns back to ^{peer at} ledger, peers at it, finds the entry.) Five. (He turns back to ^{peer at} spools.) Five ... five ... [0051] (He takes out a spool.) [0052] Spool five. [0053] (He places spool on table before him, closes box and puts it back [to] with the others. He turns back to spool.) [0054] Box thrreee spoool five. ([0059] He puts it on the machine.) [0061] He [x] peers again at ledger. Finally.) [0061|001] Passim. ([0065] He turns head front without raising, stares

[0053] (He lays it on table, closes box three and puts it back with the others. He [bends over] spool. [0054] Box three Box thrree, spool five. ([0059] He puts spool on machine, [0061] peers at ledger. Reading from ledger entry at foot of page.) [0062] Mother at rest ... [0064] The black ball ... ([0065] He raises his head. [0066] Puzzled.) [0067] The black ball?[??] ([0068] He peers again at ledger) [0069] ... The dark nurse [0069|001] [... broods] ... [0070] (He raises his head, broods, peers again at ledger) [0071] Improvement of bowel condition ... [0073] Memorable ... what? [0074] (He peers closer) [0075] Equinox. Memorable equinox. ([0076] He raises his head, stares [xx] front. [0077] Puzzled.) [0078] Memorable equinox? ([0079] Pause. [0080] He shrugs his shoulders, peers again at ledger.) [0081] Farewell ... to - (he turns the page) - love.

[0083] (strong young voice, but unmistakably his at a much earlier time.) [0084] Thirty-seven today, sound -

[0086] Thirty-seven today etc.

[0065] [blankly] before him. [0065|001] Finally, [softer].) [0065|002] P^Passim! [0082] The start of a new writing implement: blueblack ink. (He turns back to table, starts up machine, crouches down over tape, cupping his [ear] , his face turned front.

[0083] (strong young voice, unmistakably [A's] at a much earlier time). [0084] This day, being in the third - [xxx]

[0085|001] This day This day, being in the third -

[0086] This day, being in the third decade of the Ram, I enter upon my 31^st year, sound ^apparently in wind and limb, apart from my old trouble, and intellectually, I have little doubt, at the [height] ^peak of my powers. [0086|001] (Pause. With fervour.) May the [all] all-merciful Providence - (Pause. With fervour. ^[Continues]) [0086|002] May the star which [shone on my cradle in xxx Great] stood above my [cradle] ^[bassinet] in North Great G[eorges] Street continue to [burn], as heretofore, in my breast and in my labours. [0086|003] (Pause. In a [lower] voice.) In particular may I be given the strength, in the [years] coming years, to ... (Hesitation. Finally, still [lower].) to drink less. (Pause.)^Solemnly.) [0086|004] In the past year ^{12 months} I spent, [in l] on licensed premises alone, anything between ^from seventeen and ^to nineteen hundred hours. (Pause.) Nineteen Nineteen hundred hours. (Pause.) [0086|005] Oh I know, I know, I have had these [crises] before, but never ^{[at no time]} quite so acutely as today this afternoon, [sitting] ^{lying on the grass,} in the park, in the sun. (Pause.) What would help me more than anything, I think, is [a ... fuller] ... ^{a ... a fuller ... a more ... more natural ... a more ... [absorbing] engrossing} (lowering his voice) ... sexual life. (Pause.) [←] ^{Enthusiastic. Intercourse!} with [real] partners. [0086|006] (Pause.) These nineteen hundred hours, for example, if ^{in the [future]} instead of having ^of spent them bibul spending them bibulating, I were to spend them -