MS-HRC-SB-5-4

[0031] out before its time ... godforsaken hole ... no love
... spared that ... speechless all her days ...
practically speechless ... even to herself ... never
out loud ... [0032] but not completely ... sometimes
sudden urge ... once or twice a year ... always
winter some strange reason ... the long evenings
... hours of darkness ... sudden urge to ... to tell

[0032] ... then rush out and stop the first she saw ...
[0033] nearest lavatory ... start pouring it out ... steady
stream ... mad stuff ... half the vowels wrong ...
no one could follow ... till she saw the stare she
was getting ... then die of shame ... crawl back in
... once or twice a year ... always winter some
strange reason ... long hours of darkness ... now

[0033] this ... this ... quicker and quicker ... the words
... the brain ... flickering away like mad ... quick
grab and on ... nothing there ... on somewhere else
... try somewhere else ... [0034] all the time something
begging ... something in her begging ... begging it
all to stop ... unanswered ... prayer unanswered
... or unheard ... too faint ... so on ... keep on

[0034] trying ... not knowing what ... what she was trying
... what to try ... whole body like gone ... just the
mouth ... like maddened ... soon ... keep - ...
what? ... the buzzing? ... yes ... all the time the
buzzing ... dull roar like falls ... in the skull ...
and the beam ... poking around ... painless ... so
far ... ha! ... so far ... all that ... keep on ...

[0034] not knowing what ... what she was - ... what? ...
who? ... what? ... no ... no! ... SHE! ... (pause)
... what she was trying ... what to try ... no
Matter ... keep on ... [0035] (curtain starts down) ...
hit on it in the end ... then back ... God is love ...
tender mercies ... new every morning ... back in
the field ... face in the grass ... April morning
... face in the grass ... nothing but the larks ...
pick it up -

[0036] (Curtain fully down. House dark.
Voice continues behind curtain,
unintelligible, 10 seconds, ceases as
house lights up)