Samuel Beckett
Digital Manuscript Project
Not I / Pas moi

MS-HRC-SB-5-3

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Segment 1

[0012] actually ... not in the ears at all ... in the skull
... dull roar in the skull ... and all the time this
ray or beam ... like moonbeam ... but probably
not ... certainly not ... always the same spot ...
now bright ... now shrouded ... but always the
same spot ... as no moon could ... no ... no

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Segment 2

[0012] moon ... just all part of the same wish to ...
torment ... though actually in point of fact ... not
in the least ... not a twinge ... so far ... ha! ...
so far ...this other thought then ... oh, [place = margin left] [] long after
... sudden flash ... very foolish really but so like
her ... in a way ... that she might do well to [place = inline] ...

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Segment 3

[0012] groan ... on and off ... writhe she could not ...
as if in actual ... agony ...
[0013] but could not ... could
not bring herself ... some flaw in her make-up ...
incapable of deceit ... or the machine ... more
likely the machine ... so disconnected ... never
got the message ... or powerless to respond ...

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Segment 4

[0013] like numbed ... couldn't make the sound ... not
any sound ... no sound of any kind ... no screaming
for help for example ... should she feel so inclined
... scream ... (screams ) ... then listen ...
(silence ) ... scream again ... (screams again )
... [place = margin left] then listen again ... (silence ) ... no ... spared

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Segment 5

[0013] that ... [0014] all silent as the grave ... no part - ...
what? ... the buzzing? ... yes ... all silent but
for the buzzing ... so-called! [place = margin left] [] ...
[0015] no part of her
moving ... that she could feel ... just the eyelids
... presumably ... on and off ... shut out the
light ... reflex they call it ... no feeling of any

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Segment 6

[0015] kind ... but the lids ... even best of times ... who
feels them? ... opening ... shutting ... all that
moisture ...
[0016] but the brain still ... still sufficient-
ly ... oh very much so! ... at this stage ... in
control ... under control ... to question even this
... for on that April morning ... so it reasoned

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Segment 7

[0016] ... that April morning ... she fixing with her eye
... a distant bell ... as she hastened towards it ...
fixing it with her eye ... lest it elude her ... had
not all gone out ... all that light ... of itself ...
without any ... any ... on her part ... so on ...
so on it reasoned ... vain questionings ... and all

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Segment 8

[0016] dead still ... sweet silent as the grave ... when
suddenly ... gradually ... she realiz - ... what?
... the buzzing? ... yes ... all dead still but for
the buzzing ...
[0017] when suddenly she realized ...
words were - ... what? ... who? ... what? ...
no ...
[place = margin right] [] no! ... SHE! [place = margin left] [] [place = margin right] she! ... (pause and movement 2 )

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Addition 2
then
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Addition 6
she!
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