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[1656] ed I'll look for it, if I don't find it I won't have it, I'll make
the correction, with the other, if anything remains of it. [1657] Quiet,
quiet. [1658] My exercise-book, I don't see it, but I feel it in my left
hand, I don't know where it comes from, I didn't have it when I
came here, but I feel it is mine. [1659] That's the style, as if I were
sweet and seventy. [1660] In the^[⁁]at[^at] case the bed would be mine too, and the
little table, the dish, the pots, the cupboard, the blankets. [1661] No,
nothing of all that is mine.

[1662] But the exercise-book is mine, I can't
explain. [1663] The two pencils then, the exercise-book and then the stick,
which I did not have either when I came here, but which I consider
mine.^[⁁],[^,] [1664] I must have described it long ago. [1665] I am quiet, I have time,
but I shall describe as little as possible. [1666] It is with me in the
bed, under the blankets, there was a time I used to rub myself
against it, saying, It's a little woman. [1667] But it is so long that
it sticks out under the pillow and finishes far beg^hind me.

[1668] I con-
tinue from memory. [1669] It is black dark. [1670] I can hardly see the window.
[1671] It must be letting in the night again. [1672] Even if I had time to rum-
mage in my possessions, to bring them over to the bed one by one
or tangled together as is often the way with forsaken things,
I would not see anything. [1673] And perhaps indeed I have the time, let
us assume I have the time, and proceed as if I had not.

[1674] But it
cannot be so long since I checked and went through all my things^[⁁],[^,]
,^[₰] in the light, in anticipation of this hour. [1675] But since then I
must have forgotten it all. [1677] A needle stuck into two corks to pre-
vent it from sticking into me, for if the point pricks less than
the eye, no, that's wrong, for if the point pricks more than the
eye, the eye pricks too, that's wrong too.