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[2100] [p. 45r] joyfully ^{in xx with trembling & joy,} cheerfully, without hope, without regret, the nuisance ^{xxx nuisance} of doing over, and of being, same thing, for one who could never do, never be. [2101] If this voice xx could only stop, If it could only stop, this voice which means nothing, prevents you from being nothing, bein nowhere, badly, only just, just enough to be feeding this litte yellow flame keep alight this little yellow flame feebly darting to right and left, panting, as if straining to tear itself from its wick, this strange little flame, it should never have been lit, or it should never have been fed, or it should have been put ^out, put out, it should have been allowed to go out. [2102] Regrets, that helps you on, that gets you on towards the end of the world, regrets for what is, for what was, it's not the same, yes, the same, you don't know, you don't know what's happening, what's happened, perhaps it's the same, the same regrets, Regretting, that's what helps you on, that's what gets you ^on towards the end of the world, regretting what is, regretting what x was, it's not the same thing, yes, it's the same, you don't know, you don't know what's happening, you don't know what's happened, perhaps it's the same, the same regretting, that's what transports you, towards the end of regretting. [2103] But let's have a little animation ^spirit for pity's sake, it's now or never, a little go, spirit, it won't produce anything lead to anything, produce anything, not a budge, xxx that doesn't matter, we are not grocers, and one xx never knows, does one, no. [2104] Perhaps Mahood will emerge from his urn and make his way towards Montmartre, on his belly, chanting singing, I come, I come, my heart's delight. [2105] Or Worm, good old Worm, perhaps he won't be able to bear any more, of not being able, x of not being able to bear any more, it would be a pity to miss that. [2106] If I were they I set rats on the rats on him, water rats, sewer rats, they're the best, oh not that many, twelve or fifteen, that might make up his mind for him, to get going, and what an introduction, to his future attributes. [2107] No, it would be in vain, a rat wouldn't survive there, not one second. [2108] But let's have another look at his eye, that's the place to look. [2109] A little raw perhaps, the white, with all the pissing, there's a gleam there, one dare not say of intelligence. [2110] Apart from that the same as ever. [2111] A trifle more

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[2111] [p. 46r] prominent possibly, more paraphimotically globose. [2112] It seems to listen. [2113] It's worn, that's inevitable, it's xxxing glazing, it's high time to offer it something to bring it completely fr out of its orbit, in ten years it will be too late. [2114] The mistake they make is to speak of him as if he really existed, in a specific place, whereas the whole thing is no more than a project for the moment. [2115] But it is too late now to go back on that. [2116] xx Let them first continue to the end of their error, after that they can rexxx the question go into the question again, avoiding as far as possible the use of taking care not to compromise themselves by the unconsidered use of terms, if not notions, accessible to the understanding. [2117] Similarly the case of Mahood has been insufficiently studied. [2118] One One may feel ^experience the need of such creatures, assuming they are twain, xxx and even the xxx presentiment of their possibility, without launching on this blind blind and surly talk all these blind and surly discourses. bitter disquisitions. [2119] A little more reflection ^reflection would have shown them that the hour to speak, far from having struck, would perhaps never strike. [2120] But they are obliged to speak, it is forbidden them to stop. [2121] Why then don't they speak of something else, something the existence of which seems in some measure established, about which one can chatter away without obvious blushing every thirty or forty thousand words at having to employ such locutions, and which moreover, supreme gua guarantee, has already caused to wag the glibbest tongues from time immemorial, that would better, xxx xxx, be preferable. [2122] It's the old story, they want to be entertained, while doing their dirty work, no, xxx not entertained, soothed, no, that's not it either, comforted, even less, no matter, with the result that they achieve neither, neither what they want, without knowing exactly what ^{it is}, nor the obscure drudgery and loathsome labour to which they are committed, the old story. [2123] You wouldn't they were the same people as a moment ago, would you? [2124] What can you expect, they don't know either who they are,

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