MS-UoR-1227-7-12-1

[0012] all the time this beam or ray ... as before ...
like from a moon ... but no doubt ^perhaps not ...
no doubt ^{perhaps all} part of the wish to ... torment ...
but not in the least ... not a twinge ...
for the moment ... ha! ... for the moment ...

[0012] then this other thought ... very childish really
but so like her ... that she might do well to ...
groan now and then ... (writhe she could not) ... as though in actual ...
pain ... excruciating ... agony ...

[0013] but
could not bring herself ... to ^{as much as} try ... some ^flaw
thing in her makeup ^make-up ... incapable of
deceit ... [0014] dead silence of course ... all
this time ... but for the buzzing ... so-called! ...

[0015] no part of her moving ... but the eyelids ...
presumably ... that she could feel ...
only the eyelids ... presumably ... now & then ...
to keep out ^{rest from} the light ... little ^faint though it was ...
reflex they call it ... no feeling at all ...
of any kind ... but the lids ... even in
real life ... who feels them? ... opening ...
closing ^shutting ... all that moisture ...

[0016] but the
brain still sufficiently ... oh very much so ...
on the alert ... xxx xxx xxx xxx to
question the matter ... for that April morning ...
so it reasoned ... that April morning ...
she fixing with her eye ... a distant cowslip ...

[0016] x as she hastened towards it ... fixing it
with her eye ... lest it disappear ^{vanish elude her} ... had
not all gone out ... all that light ... of
itself ... without any ... any ... on her
part ... and so on ... so on it reasoned ...

[0016] deeper & deeper even deeper down ... vain
questionings ... and all dead still ...
... dead silent thought ^{thought silent as the grave} ... impossible to describe ...
when suddenly ... gradually ... she real- ...
what? ... the buzzing? ... yes ... all dead still
but for the buzzing ... so-called! ... right in
the heart ... the very heart ... of the skull ...

[0017] when
suddenly she realized ... words were coming .... ...
WORDS WERE COMING! ... what? ... I? ... I realized? ...
no... NO! ... she ... suddenly she realized ...
words were coming ... WORDS WERE COMING! -
a voice she did not recognize ... at first ... it was
... suddenly she realized ... words were coming so long ...
since she had uttered

[0018] ... but had finally to admit ...
to herself ... could be no other ... than her own ...
certain vowel sounds ... she had never heard ...
elsewhere ... so that people would look at her ...
uncomprehending the ... an unbroken flow ...
she who had never been a talker ... a talker ...
on the contrary ... practically speechless ...
all her days ... how she survived

[0019] ... even
shopping ... ^{busy shopping centre ...} just handed in the list ... with
the shopping bag ... then stood there waiting ...
any length of time ... motionless ... staring
at nothing ^{into space} ... till it was back in her hand ...
the bag ... then paid & went ... not as much
as goodbye ... how she survived ... and