Samuel Beckett
Digital Manuscript Project
Footfalls / Pas

MS-UoR-1552-2

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[0002] V Woman's voice from dark.

[0001] M Mary

[0008] Voices low
throughout

[0006] Steps clearly
audible.


[0003] Strip
xx.



[0009] Curtain. [0010] Stage in darkness.

[0011] Sound.

[0013] Fade up to dim on strip. [0014] Rest in darkness.

[0015] M pacing. [0016] Say about 3 ½ lengths counting from r2


[0016] M halts facing front at R .

[0017] Pause.

M

[0018] Mother.

[0022] Pause.

V

[0023] Yes Mary.

M

[0024] Were you asleep?

V

[0025] Deep asleep. [0026] (Pause.) [0027] I heard you in my deep sleep. [0028] (Pause.) [0029] There is no sleep so deep I would not hear you there.

M

[0029|001] What kind of sleep is that?

[0030] Pause. [0031] M resumes pacing. [0032] Say 4 lengths starting from R

V

[0033] (at l1 length 2, synchronous with steps). [0034] One two three four five six seven wheel one two three four five six seven wheel. [0034|001] (Pause. [0035] Free.) [0036] Will you not try to get a little sleep?

[0037] M halts facing front at R. [0038] Pause.

M

[0039] Would you like me to inject you again?

V

[0040] Yes, but it is too soon.

[0041] Pause.

M

[0042] Would you like me to change your position?

V

[0043] Yes, but It is too soon. [0044] (Pause. [0044|001] Ma resumes pacing

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M

[0045] Rearrange your pillows? [0046] (Pause.) [0047] Change your drawsheet? [0048] (Pause.) [0049] Pass you the urinal? [0050] (Pause.) [0051] The bedpan? [0052] (Pause.) [0053] Dress your sores? [0054] (Pause.) [0055] Sponge you down? [0056] (P.) [0057] Moisten yr. lips. [0057|001] Tell you bedtime story?

[0062] Pause.

V

[0063] Yes, but It is all too soon.

[0064] Pause.

M

[0065] How old am I now?

V

[0066] And I?

M

[0070] (I suppose) getting on for ninety.

V

[0071] As much as that?

M

[0072] Eighty-nine, ninety.

V

[0073] I had you late in life.

M

[0073|001] Could you not You might have waited?.

[0076] Pause

V

[0077] I'm sorry Forgive me again.

[0078] Pause.

M

[0082] Well?

V

[0083] (You must be) well into your forties.

M

[0084] Is that all?

V

[0085] I'm afraid so. [0087] (M resumes pacing. [0088] After steps first wheel.)
[0089] Mary.

M

[0093] (pacing). [0094] Yes Mother.

V

[0097] Can you not stop revolving it all?

M

[0098] (pacing). [0099] It?

V

[0100] It all. [0101] (Pause.) [0102] In your poor mind. [0103] (Pause.) [0104] It all. [0105] (Pause.) [0106] It all.

[0107] M continues pacing., [0108] say about 2 lengths after about 5 secs. [0109] Fade out on strip. [0110] All in darkness. [0111] Steps silent. [0112] Long pause.

[0113] Sound a little fainter

[0115] Fade up a little dimmer on strip. [0116] Rest in darkness.

[0117] M facing f M standing front at .

[0118] Pause.

V

[0119] I walk here now. [0120] (Pause.) [0121] Rather I come and sit. [0122] (Pause.) [0123] At nightfall. [0124] (Pause.) [0125] My voice is in her head. [0126] (Pause.) [0127] She thinks she is alone. [0128] (Pause.) [0129] See how still she stands., []with her face to the wall.[] [0130] (Pause.) [0131] How calm, outwardly unmoved. [0132] (Pause.) [0133] She has not been out since girlhood. [0134] (Pause.) [0135] She hears in her head, She has not been out since girlhood. [0136] (Pause.) [0137] Not out since girlhood. [0138] (Pause.) [0139] Where is she, it may be

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V

[0139] asked. [0140] (Pause.) [0141] In the old home, the same where she - [0142] (Pause.) [0143] The same where she began. [0144] (Pause.) [0145] Where it began for her. [0146] (P.) [0147] It all. [0148] (P) [0148|001] A general practitioner named Haddon, dead soon after. to die with not long to live. long past his best. (P.) Not long to live. (P.) [0148|002] (Pause.) [0148|003] Made rather a mess of it. [0148|004] (P.) [0148|005] Though always on the plain and dull side she once had an admirer. a swain. [0148|006] (Pause.) [0148|007] That she is still a maid is almost certain. [0148|008] (Pause.) [0149] When did this begin? [0150] (Pause.) [0151] When other girls of her age were out at hockey and lacrosse she was already here. [0152] (Pause.) [0153] At this. [0154] (Pause.) [0155] The floor here, now bare, was once - . [0156] (M begins pacing. [0157] Steps audible as before.) [0158] But let us watch her move in simlence. [0159] (M paces. [0160] (Near xxx xxx of length 1) Towards end of second length.)) [0161] See Watch how feat she wheels. [0162] (M wheels turns, paces. [0163] Synchronous with steps. length 2) [0164] Two three four five []six ... [0165] (M pavces, halts finally at ). (Wheels at R, paces 2 more lengths, stops halts at R.) third length. M turns at L, paces one more length, halts facing front at R. [0166] The floor here then, this strip of floor, once it was carpeted, a deep pile, [0167] till one day, while still little more than a child, she called her mother and said, Mother, this is not enough. [0168] The mother: Not enough? [0169] Mary - the child's given name - Mary: No Mother. [0170] The mother: What do you mean, Mary, not enough, what can you possibly mean, Mary, not enough? [0171] Mary: No Mother, I must hear the feet, however faint they fall. [0172] The mother: The motion alone is not enough? [0173] Mary: No Mother, the motion alone is not enough, I must hear the gfeet, however faint they fall. [0174] (Pause. [0175] Mary resumes pacing. [0176] With pacing.) [0177] Does she still sleep, it may be asked. [0178] Yes, in snatches, bows her head against the wall and snatches a little sleep. [0179] (Pause.) [0180] Still speak? [0181] Yes, some nights she does, when she thinks none can hear. [0182] (Pause.) [0183] Tells how it was. [0184] (Pause.) [0185] Tries to tell how it was. [0186] (Pause.) [0187] It all. [0188] (Pause.) [0189] It all.

[0190] M continues pacing. [0191] say 5 seconds after about 5 secs [0192] Fade out on strip. [0193] All in darkness. [0194] Steps silent. [0195] Long pause.

[0196] Sound. a little fainter still.

[0198] Fade up a little dimmer still on strip. [0199] Rest in darkness. [0200] M pacing. M halts at standing facing front at . [stet]

[0201] Pause.

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M

[0202] Appendix: [0203] some ten years later, when she was quite forgotten, she began - . [0204] (Pause.) [0205] Some few years later, when it was all as though she had never been, if she ever had, she began to walk. [0206] (Pause.) [0207] At nightfall. [0208] (Pause.) [0209] Slip out into the little church by the south door, always closed at that hour, and walk up and down the corresponding arm. [0211] Often she [0210] (Pause.) [0211] Often she would halt, as one frozen by something in motion of the mind, and stand stock still, before moving on again. [0212] But many also were the evenings when the pacing continued unbroken, xxx till she vanished the way she had come. [0213] (Pause.) [0214] No sound of course. [0215] (Pause.) [0216] None at least to be heard. [0217] (Pause.) [0218] The appearance? [0220] Paces. [][0220|001] 1L [0222]Halts at L. [0223] P: [0223|001] The appearance? [0223|002] (P.) (Pause.) [0224] Faint, but buy no means invisible almost invisible [stet] ., in a certain light [0227] (Pause.) [0228] Grey rather than white, a light shade of grey. [0229] (Pause.) [0230] Ragged. [0231] (Pause.) [0232] A tangle of rags. [0233] (Pause.) [0233|001] Pale grey rags. [0233|002] (Pause.) [0234] A faint tangle of pale grey rags. [0235] (Pause.) [0236] Watch it - (Pause.) Watch her pass before a candelabrum, how the flames, the light of the flames...like moon through cloud. [0237] (Pause.) [0237|001] Or mist. [0237|002] (Pause.) [0238] Thus soon not long after having gone, as though never been, behgan to walk, along the south transept, up and down, at nightfall. [0239] (Pause?) (Pause.) [0240] Nightfall. [0241] (Pause.) [0242] That is to say, at certain periods seasons of the year, during evensong. [0243] (Pause.) [0244] Necessarily. [0245] (Pause.)[] [0246] Paces x½L+. [0247] Halts at r2. [0248] P [0249] Mrs Winter, whom the reader will remember, Mrs Winter, one autumn Sunday evening, on sitting down to supper with her daughter after worship, after a few half-hearted mouthfuls laid down her knife and fork and blowed her head. [0249|001] (Pause.) [0250] What is it, Mother, said the daughter, a very strange girl, though hardly scarcely a girl any more...(Brokenly.) Dreadfully unhappy... [0252] (Normal voice.) [0253] What is is it, Mother, are you not feeling well yourself? [0255] Mrs Winter did not at once reply. [0256] But finally, raising her head and fixing Emily - the daughter's given name, as the reader will remember - fixing Emily full in the eye, she said - (pause) - she murmured - , Emily, did you notice anything unusual strange in church this evening? [0257] Emily: No Mother, I did not. [0258] Mrs Winter: Perhaps it was just my fancy. [0259] Emily: Just what exactly, Mother, did you perhaps fancy it was? [0260] (Pause.) [0261] Just what []exactly, Mother, did you perhaps fancy it was you saw? [0263] Mrs Winter - [0262] (Pause.) [0263] Mrs Winter: You noticed nothing strange? [0264] Emily: Nothing whatever, Mother, I did not, to put it mildly. [0268] I saw nothing, heard nothing. [0268|001] Nothing whatever. [0269] I was not there. [0265] Mrs W: What do you mean, Emily, to put it mildly, what can you possibly mean, Emily, to put it mildly? [0266] Emily:[A] [0266] I mean, mother, that to say I noticed nothing strange is to put it mildly. [0267] For I noticed nothing of any kind. []unusual or otherwise [0268] I saw nothing, heard nothing, of any kind. [0269] I was not there.[A] [0270] Mrs Winter: Not there? [0271] Emily: Not there. [0272] Mrs Winter: But I heard you respond. [0273] (Pause.) [0274] I heard you say Amen. [0275] (Pause.) [0278] How could you have said Amen if, as you claim, you were not there? [0278|001]E Emily - [0278|002] (xxPause.) [0278|003] Emily: At the end? [0278|004] (Pause.) [0278|005] At the very end? [0278|006] Mrs Winter: Well yes I suppose if you like, what difference does that make? [0279] (Pause.) [0280] "...the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Ghost, be with us lall, evermore. [0281] Axxx Amen." [0283] I heard you distinctly. [0283|001] Emily: I was may have been there at the very end. [0285] Paces. [0288] 1/2 L-. Halts at R. [0289] P [0290] Mrs Winter: Emily. [0295] Emily: Yes Mother. [0299] Mrs Winter: Can you not stop revolving it all.? [0301] Emily: It? [0303] Mrs Winter: It all. [0304] (Pause.) [0305] In your poor mind. [0306] (Pause.) [0307] It all. [0308] (Pause.) [0309] It all.

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[0310] Pause. [0311] Fade out on stroip. [0312] All in darkness. [0313] Long pause.

[0314] Same sound a little fainter still.

[0316] Fade up on strip a little dimmer still. [0317] No sign of Mary. [0318] Long pause. [0319] Fade out. [0320] Curtain.